Carrie Underwood's, "When I Stop Loving You.."

I just thought I would say this is the song I have thought of so many times observing people whether I'm running away, looking at them like their nuts, getting harassed, fighting with people, or just plain crying..I think of Love as she explains it this way..and I feel I deserve a great thanks to my friend Sarah who gave me this cd. :) Listening to the Fray right now, played on my guitar, totally ditched need for speed today and slept in and sat on Dad's lap..haha I love going backwards..and forwards..it teaches me to appreciate so much about life..meanwhile world..just remember you left me struggling..it's up to you by whether I build up or break down..so many things can be misguided..buying strings for the guitar because it's kinda hard to play on it when I'm missing D and E!! Seriously though, I cried today, not sure if it was lack of sleep or relief..or just plain stress! Sarah and I are going to see a movie over the break and I'm going to spend the night..I hope it will be great..I'm truly running out of energy! Haha..those lil girls will keep you hopping if u let them!!

World Poem

Dear World
When You Try to
Pick Me Apart
Remember...
That I Do Love You
But that maybe
When I Don't Make Sense
Sometimes I'm trying
To Say
That The World Isn't Always
Going to..
You may cry
You may fight
You may lie
You may crash
But....
Finish Noble
To the Last.

Sometimes you may be struggling, but that's when you learn to live the most, our battles and struggles make us who we are..I guess I've always known that it's not always going to make sense so I make do with what I have..I'm always flippy and I go back and forth between wanting girlfriends, husbands and boyfriends to wanting none at all..haha and can't forget the dear mothers, fathers, grandma's and grandpas, the aunts and uncles and cousins are truly sweet(love u family)..however I know I'm only one person..I'll try to be somebody strong..sometimes you just got to learn to live again. Please excuse me if I break though! Sometimes I'm anything but normal and sometimes I just enjoy the serene peace. Please just have enough respect to let me be me. I hate the pressure and being pulled in all these directions and I'm tired.

Songs to Heal the World :)

Sweetness (Jimmy-Eat-World), The Adventure (Angels and Airwaves), If I Die Young (The Band Perry) and "Et Ducit Mundum Per Luce." 1,2,3,4 (Plain White T's) Look at Me, Temporary Home (Carrie Underwood), Love Finds You, Angels (Grant Terry), We Belong Together (Mariah Carey), Lonestar, Painter Song, One Flight Down (Norah Jones), Unfaithful, Dem Haters, Kisses Don't Lie (Rihanna) ..Lasso (The Band Perry)