I remember the times where a little girl gets her pigtails pulled by a guy that crushes on her. Why can't things just stay as innocent as this. Or that of a small boy and girl who kiss each other in kindergarten. I wish I wasn't playing adult grown-up games, teaching people and learning to get hurt,. . desensitizing myself to already protect myself from the things I already know. The world is sad sometimes but damn am I glad that I've got some common sense. Thank God that there is good people out there. Now it's all jealousy, or no answer contempt..irritation? Am I not the only one..thank God for people because you can always find a good friend. It's upsetting sometimes though to see that a good friend is not willing to open her eyes and see that the guy she is waiting for that is already in jail will likely only hurt her if he ever gets out. Then, there's me..and I wonder if there is any hope at all because as long as I remember I fought off guys who liked me from being pretty young. However, I do remember being the little girl who kissed boys at recess. Then it's like meeting people who like you who you have to tell, "Thank you for ruining my innocence!" I wish I was carefree..so I'm going to say goodbye to the relationships baby..AGAIN..and I really hope that I go for trucks this time because it seems like I know how to handle them better. Haha..I have COMMITMENT ISSUES call me when I'm in Paradise..which will probably be never..so have fun and think of me if ya pissed me off..guys..but how I sure miss that childhood innocence.
